It is now 3:59 AM. Right around 3:15 AM, Elliot woke up crying. I know it is because of transitioning to daycare. I feel awful about it, of course, so I go in to her room to rock and nurse her. She doesn't want to rock, she wants to play. I think she thinks that if she gets up earlier, she'll have more time with us. Ever since we've gone back to work, she's been up between 5 and 5:15, instead of her normal 6 or 6:30. Now, at 4:02, she's still complaining and pausing to hear if David or I are coming. It was 3:30 when I put her back in her crib. I feel terrible because I know this is my fault because I've gone back to work, and she's used to being home. I just want to go in and cuddle and love her, but I know she won't sleep, she just wants to play. I couldn't lay in bed anymore and listen to her. My heart literally aches.
I didn't know it would be this hard.
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